#114 Lost
Monday, July 18, 2011
Confessions.
No im not the person i used to be today. I realize im different from before. I have 2 personality if nobody realize. 1 i carry it to college everyday, not showing how i really felt and laugh all day long.
Another one is when im alone.
Nobody believes me when i told them my past, they dont expect me being like how i used to be and how i am now. But here you go, yes i may be noisy and irritating at times but the reason behind is because i dont want bad thoughts to flow in my brain. I dont want to be alone eventhough id prefer being alone most of the time.
And when im alone, well i wont tell you how i am.
I also realize, everyone in my family is different now. Eversince my dad fell sick, everyone of us change. I hate how 1 person can affect everyone. My temper starts getting bad, i get really pissed easily and you wont like me when i am. We're not who we are, we're people in pain.
That explains why i dont want to go back home. Why when im out in the morning till night, why i rather stay somewhere all alone the whole day instead of going back home. Like ive said in my previous post, i dont feel a home. Now being home is like being in hell, i feel the pressure and stress building up.
How the fuck am i gonna survive 1 whole month staying home ? I NEED TO DO SOMETHING I DONT WANT TO BE LOCK IN THIS CRAP. i cant take it no more
Labels: Life
5:57 PM
Hello bitches and bastard ! Yes im back now after MIA for so long. Guess im in the mood to blog again :) Sorry for the dead blog.
113# BACK
Friday, July 15, 2011
Hello bitches and bastard ! Yes im back now after MIA for so long. Guess im in the mood to blog again :) Sorry for the dead blog.
Life's okay so far. College is really fun (: I enjoy it alot (highschool sucks) Friends are really nice (: Seniors are too(well some of it). its great (:
Today was my last day of first semester. We had presentation today, to present all our work to all lecturers. Id say its a success (: comments from lecturer are good. Nothing bad at all ! Im so glad!
Tho i wished i could explain even more about my work but i was too nervous, my brain wasnt working and i talk to fast. But still :D (Y)
Lecturers said Im a very creative person (no doubt i am!) I always come out with different ideas, I always think out of the box, and lastly i have potential in designing (YES I NOTICE THAT! i have been dreaming of myself being a successful designer in the future since i was 12 man) And also they said that im a very very impatient person, i dint give enough time to do my work, i just want to get everything done(Which is true) and if i really did give more time, my artwork would be really really good (:
OHYEAHBABEH no bad comments (: although i was hoping for more bad comments tho. I mean, i dont like people complimenting on my artwork(not bragging about myself) I really want people to condemn on my work. Tell me wheres my flaws at, what is wrong and what people want to see, how can i improve. Like really. The reason why some of my work is as nice as this is because i always want to know what people think and then slowly on i improve and improve . Thats how i adapt to design (:
Im still happy with the lecturer's comment tho i was looking for something different.
So yeah college was awesome :D one heck of a college life that ill appreciate and will enjoy!
i dohnooh what to tokh. baibai
Labels: Life
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