..Until he came..

Everything was normal between us both until we were alone in the room talking. Acting like everything is fine, no weird awkward moments. I was controlling the game. Laughing at stupid random topics. Then out of nowhere, I thought i heard wrongly of him telling me something, thought it was all in my mind that somehow i was day dreaming, lost somewhere in space. He called out my name and says it again, and then i snapped out of everything. It was like, i forgot how to breathe at that moment. Controlling myself not to tear out, no weird reaction. I looked at him and smiled, as if i was happy for him. Looking at him looking back at me with a smile, i feel like i got stabbed with a knife in the heart. He's in love with someone but he wasnt clear with the answers from that someone,not rejected cause theres still hope. He kept telling me non stop, how crazy he was ever since he fell for that someone. But i played along, i helped him how to woo that girl, tease him at the same time as well. I was trying to cover.

Everytime i look at him, looking at his "im in love with someone" face, listening to him mentioning her name after every end of the sentences. Every one move, one word from him, Its another knife stabbing in me. One by one..by one..

And starts from now on, he's gonna text/call/find me just because he's much heartbroken.

Ive been stabbed with a thousand knives, how many more do you want to stab me with ?

In that one night, It feels like i got stabbed with a thousand knives in the heart. each and every one of it slowly stabbing in deep till i bleed

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