I hate looking at my dad sometimes. No not because i really hate him or what, is because he's so skinny now ! last time he looked like Santa Clause's brother, happy and jolly(withouht a beard lah). Now, his waist is atleast 26cm(maybe lesser). Now he always dont have an appetite to eat at all, he only drinks milk and force himself to eat bread of biscuit. Sometimes when we're out together, we always let him pick what to eat because not everything that he can eat. I can hear his tears in his voice whenever he answer us "Lei tei yew sek mat ma sek lah, mmsai lei ngo, ngo yew sek mat chin kan ngo hiu chikei sek. moi lei ngo" (translation: you want to eat what you eat, dont have to care about me,i want to eat what i can eat my own later, dont care about me). See what i mean ? before he's sick, his very the happening one you know ? he loves to travel everywhere,bringing us to places we've never been before. He's always searching for good food, trying everything new. He can travel all the way to johor to eat good food and come back. But now he doesnt. Its hard to see him like this. He used to always do silly stuffs, silly dance moves and make us laugh. Things have changed. He's not strong like he used to be, but i can see him fighthing for his life. He is.

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