I think i really need to see a psychiatrist. To know why am i constantly feeling like this. Ive been crying for years, always in depression. and then comes suicidal. And i have no idea why. I just feel this way, all the time. All i know is im messed up in my mind. Not thinking straight or rightly. and i want to seek for help. Why am i always emotionaly unstable. and its fucked because i can never think happy and be happy. i suddenly dont know whats happy and whats sad. feelings all messed up. i dont know what to feel. and this sucks. whatever shit im in right now, its affecting everything around me. you know what. i dont know what else to say as im lost in my mine now.